Post by Seii on Jun 22, 2013 15:09:10 GMT -6
In about 26 hours I'm due to find out my results for my second year of University, and whilst normally I wouldn't be too stressed out, I'm particularly freaking over this one.
If you don't already know I'm currently studying Japanese at degree level, a 4 year course that requires that I spend the 3rd year on a years placement study in the holy land, Japan itself before returning for the 4th year to write a dissertation. This is something I've dreamed of doing for as long as I can remember (I'm classified as a mature student at 25, so I've been dreaming a while).
My allocated institution is in Kyoto (KYOTO!!) and I'm so freaking excited about finally realising my lifetime aspiration and I've worked my damn arse off this past year to keep my grades up and do well with the language (despite being far from the best in class). I've been managing to maintain a decent level up to my exams. There're 3 major exams and I know for sure that I didn't do particularly well on one of them, and it's shaken me up something rotten. All of my hard work could be unraveled because of a 10 minute speaking exam where I let my nerves get the better of me.
Our teachers have a habit of ramping up the stress levels, and there are several uncontrollable factors that would stop me from being able to partake in any exam resits, meaning I would be stuck for a year, could lose my allocation with the Kyoto University for the following year (their standards are pretty high and having a giant fail would put them off me for damn sure) and I am at a loss of being able to come up with a plan B.
Nobody around me is letting me punch anything/anyone whilst I wait for these results so I'm just going to type really hard on my keyboard whilst I wait, at least until tomorrow anyway where I'll just get drunk to dull the pain/increase the high depending on what I read.
If you've read up to this point, then thank-you and I'm sorry
If you don't already know I'm currently studying Japanese at degree level, a 4 year course that requires that I spend the 3rd year on a years placement study in the holy land, Japan itself before returning for the 4th year to write a dissertation. This is something I've dreamed of doing for as long as I can remember (I'm classified as a mature student at 25, so I've been dreaming a while).
My allocated institution is in Kyoto (KYOTO!!) and I'm so freaking excited about finally realising my lifetime aspiration and I've worked my damn arse off this past year to keep my grades up and do well with the language (despite being far from the best in class). I've been managing to maintain a decent level up to my exams. There're 3 major exams and I know for sure that I didn't do particularly well on one of them, and it's shaken me up something rotten. All of my hard work could be unraveled because of a 10 minute speaking exam where I let my nerves get the better of me.
Our teachers have a habit of ramping up the stress levels, and there are several uncontrollable factors that would stop me from being able to partake in any exam resits, meaning I would be stuck for a year, could lose my allocation with the Kyoto University for the following year (their standards are pretty high and having a giant fail would put them off me for damn sure) and I am at a loss of being able to come up with a plan B.
Nobody around me is letting me punch anything/anyone whilst I wait for these results so I'm just going to type really hard on my keyboard whilst I wait, at least until tomorrow anyway where I'll just get drunk to dull the pain/increase the high depending on what I read.
If you've read up to this point, then thank-you and I'm sorry
Good luck Seii!
